Oh, I don't see any lack of honor and worth--not everyone can have Loki yammering in their head, and the human race as a whole is probably better off if only a smaller percentage of people do.
I also have a general dissatisfaction with my level of personal experience and participation as compared to my level of knowledge and lurking. Admittedly, I've only recently started really trying to change that in the last year now that I've moved to a new area with a denser population and correspondingly larger number of Interesting People, so, realistically, change should take a while.
I might be very impulsive in some ways, but in others I hang back and test the waters for a long long time. All that lurking has yielded a great deal of information about how to mess up and do things wrong, so it makes one cautious in proceeding. I've near-completely skipped the introductory stage of jumping right into Wicca as a result of this sort of thing and don't really have any intention of doing so.
The problem is, if I'm so determined not to borrow anyone else's path (because I'm fairly certain it isn't right for me or doing so would but culturally appropriative or whatever), then I have to be forging my own. And that's often a bit slower going.
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Date: 2008-10-27 04:55 am (UTC)I also have a general dissatisfaction with my level of personal experience and participation as compared to my level of knowledge and lurking. Admittedly, I've only recently started really trying to change that in the last year now that I've moved to a new area with a denser population and correspondingly larger number of Interesting People, so, realistically, change should take a while.
I might be very impulsive in some ways, but in others I hang back and test the waters for a long long time. All that lurking has yielded a great deal of information about how to mess up and do things wrong, so it makes one cautious in proceeding. I've near-completely skipped the introductory stage of jumping right into Wicca as a result of this sort of thing and don't really have any intention of doing so.
The problem is, if I'm so determined not to borrow anyone else's path (because I'm fairly certain it isn't right for me or doing so would but culturally appropriative or whatever), then I have to be forging my own. And that's often a bit slower going.